Naturally Thin

Heidi Lauckhardt-Rhoades wrote, "A naturally thin person does not overeat seriously, watch someone who is naturally thin.  They eat until satisfied and that’s it." on The Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans site. Yes, when I was naturally thin, I never overate.  I ate what I wanted, didn't count calories, didn't even really care what a calorie was. I ate until I was satisfied, but I don't know that I would have even been able to articulate that.  I think I would have just said that I was finished. Done. Full. Fine. Didn't want anymore. How did I know I was done?  I don't recall.


Now, I can eat an entire pint of Ben & Jerry's Chunky Monkey ice cream until that last chunk of chocolate is found and finished.  If there is more 'monkey' left when the 'chunky' is all eaten, I dump it down the garbage disposal.  I get very upset if I eat the last chunk of chocolate and don't realize it's the LAST ONE.  It's as if I am eating to get to the last chunk of chocolate.  This is not the behavior of a naturally thin person.  How would a naturally thin person eat Chunky Monkey?  WOULD a naturally thin person even buy it, much less eat it?  Yes, I ate it when I was naturally thin.  Someone else put a serving in a bowl for me.  I didn't know how many chunks of chocolate were in my bowl or in that pint.  I enjoyed each bite, or enjoyed the taste and texture and when it was finished I didn't give it a second thought.  I paid more attention to the conversations and the people I was with.  This is an actual scene from my past that I have just described.  I was actually the very first time I ever ate Chunky Monkey ice cream.  


For today, I will act AS IF I am naturally thin.  I will eat AS IF I am naturally thin. I will behave AS IF I am naturally thin.  I'll let you know how it goes.